SHIFTING IN STRIFE<\/b><\/p>\n
“There is always beauty on the other side of pain”. I think there are times in all our lives that we battle with depression and loneliness, it’s part of life, and I believe it’s part of change. It’s God nudging us in a different direction, shifting us on a different path. Change is difficult, it’s scary, and it can cause us to become paralyzed with fear and land us in a deep dark depression.<\/p>\n
I know from very personal experience that in these times of extreme strife, when we are in the process of shifting, we can make it through to the other side if we hold onto faith and keep believing that we are being guided and we are strong enough to become a better version of ourselves.<\/p>\n
I was recently looking through one of my journals from when I was living in New York City and came across this entry I entitled Strife.<\/i><\/b> It was amazing for me to read this after 20 years and to see and feel the incredible shift that took place so many years ago. In a few words I was able to describe in detail the strife I was experiencing, the faith I was exhibiting as I reached out for God in the darkness, and the beauty of the colorful bliss as I came out the other side.<\/p>\n
We all experience depression, we all go through change. It’s part of evolving into the human being God created us to be. Sometimes the voices around us get loud and distracting, but if we visualize ourselves on the other side, we will get there, we will make it.<\/p>\n
Journal entry 6\/20\/1993 NYC <\/b><\/p>\n
STRIFE<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n “I’m sitting all alone<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I can’t believe my ears<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The stories that I’m told<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Are much to sad to hear<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I can’t believe my eyes<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n They’re seeing things in black<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n It seems the curtain ties<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Have broke and kept the sun back<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n This world that I call home<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Is splitting at the seams <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n There’s nowhere I can go<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n It’s like a terrible dream<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Oh, please help me God <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’ve seem to lose my way<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The city’s got so loud <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Please hear me say <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I don’t know what there is to do<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’ve never felt so cold<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Please show me how to move<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’ll move, I will go<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Depression is a state<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n It simply will not hold <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The swinging of the gate<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Is harder than I’m told <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The things I saw so black<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’m seeing them in OZ<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The curtain is tied back <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I stop and take a pause <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The sun I see so bright <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n It’s like an awesome dream <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I now can see the light<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n It’s falling in a beam<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n The life that was so dark<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n Is full of range and bliss<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’m walking through the park<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’m blowing off a kiss<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n I’m feeling very strong <\/i><\/b><\/p>\n And very full of life<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n My life is like a song<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n My song is made from strife.”<\/i><\/b><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" SHIFTING IN STRIFE “There is always beauty on the other side of pain”. I think there are times in all our lives that we battle with depression and loneliness, it’s part of life, and I believe it’s part of change. It’s God nudging us in a different direction, shifting us on a different path. Change […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":488,"featured_media":104457,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9281],"tags":[210,6045,12963,6758,1852,12964,3025,12961,12962,583],"yst_prominent_words":[18898,19112,78116,29706,29344,23962,67086,19506,72044,32749,30612,31578,28340,28429,29011,28444,77033,32008,78083,29172],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/34156"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/488"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=34156"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/34156\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/104457"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=34156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=34156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=34156"},{"taxonomy":"yst_prominent_words","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/vivaglammagazine.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/yst_prominent_words?post=34156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}